I have a monster living inside me. An energy sucking vampire that have affected my social, financial and physical well being. It's name is King Alcoholism. Both of my grandfathers were alcoholics, and 2 of my uncles on my mom's side are alcoholics as well. I'm NOT GOING TO BE A FUCKING LOSER!!!!!!!!!!!! I do NOT want to be an alcoholic. But it is so fucking hard and sometimes I just really, really need a drink. I can tell it's getting out of hand though and it's time to put a permanent stop to this BULLSHIT. Please God I humble myself before you, please give me the strength to overcome this addiction.