Gotdamn, I wish I had time to respond to each post individually. I appreciate everyone's advice and perspective. I have to give a special shout-out to Wiredniko & MSTeacher. That shit helped. Period. (not to imply I didn't find gems in other posts as well - I certainly did).
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I did an interesting thought experiment last night. I imagined myself in my ideal situation (some call this visualizing or whatever). I imagined I was making at least $500/day, self-employed, and despite business obligations, I was free to wake up and go to sleep whenever I chose. I could outsource a huge chunk of my workload, and escape soul-crushing routine. I was free to hang out with friends and family without navigating the 9-5 schedule, etc. I could vacation on a whim or travel wherever I wanted (within reason).
I tried to imagine if it would even be possible to be as cynical as I've been lately under those circumstances.
The answer?
Fuck no. I would still harbor a healthy dose of skepticism and realist sentiment, but I can't imagine I'd be so fucking negative or semi-depressed.
This leads me to believe a lot of my negative mindset stems from my present situation. Within the last 6 months, I've cut off most "friends," moved in with vastly more intelligent/wholesome individuals, and started outlining/building the foundation of my next venture.
That's all great, but I'm nowhere near where I want to be in life, and I think that's really bugging me. I'm overwhelmed with my workload, scared to risk a decent chunk of my savings, weary of failure (wasted time), and constantly second-guessing my decisions.
This stress - coupled with emotional withdrawals from my previous lifestyle - is a recipe for me to focus on negative shit, even though I'm doing the "responsible thing."
So I think 50% of this shit is just poor coping mechanisms. This is happy news, because it means all I have to do is put on my big boy pants, grow some bigger balls, make some mental adjustments, and keep persisting.
The other 30% is existential bullshit that magically goes away once I regulate my thought flow (just like many members claimed it would).
The remaining 20% is just personal stuff I need to work through.
But I got this.
Anyway, thanks again for the motivation.
Taking a long WF break unless I got to do business here.
Cheers fam
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I did an interesting thought experiment last night. I imagined myself in my ideal situation (some call this visualizing or whatever). I imagined I was making at least $500/day, self-employed, and despite business obligations, I was free to wake up and go to sleep whenever I chose. I could outsource a huge chunk of my workload, and escape soul-crushing routine. I was free to hang out with friends and family without navigating the 9-5 schedule, etc. I could vacation on a whim or travel wherever I wanted (within reason).
I tried to imagine if it would even be possible to be as cynical as I've been lately under those circumstances.
The answer?
Fuck no. I would still harbor a healthy dose of skepticism and realist sentiment, but I can't imagine I'd be so fucking negative or semi-depressed.
This leads me to believe a lot of my negative mindset stems from my present situation. Within the last 6 months, I've cut off most "friends," moved in with vastly more intelligent/wholesome individuals, and started outlining/building the foundation of my next venture.
That's all great, but I'm nowhere near where I want to be in life, and I think that's really bugging me. I'm overwhelmed with my workload, scared to risk a decent chunk of my savings, weary of failure (wasted time), and constantly second-guessing my decisions.
This stress - coupled with emotional withdrawals from my previous lifestyle - is a recipe for me to focus on negative shit, even though I'm doing the "responsible thing."
So I think 50% of this shit is just poor coping mechanisms. This is happy news, because it means all I have to do is put on my big boy pants, grow some bigger balls, make some mental adjustments, and keep persisting.
The other 30% is existential bullshit that magically goes away once I regulate my thought flow (just like many members claimed it would).
The remaining 20% is just personal stuff I need to work through.
But I got this.
Anyway, thanks again for the motivation.
Taking a long WF break unless I got to do business here.
Cheers fam
