Ever feel that you are losing your mind?

OP,

Disconnect from your surrounding. Not just in the mental sense. But actually. Take a break. Switch off that mobile phone and keep it home.

1. Go away. Somewhere far. Take a flight. Travel to another state. Don't take a scheduled leave. Go impromptu. Go for 7 days, stay for 10 or maybe 15.

2. Once you reach there. Live. Indulge in something that will enthral you. Something that will scare the hell out of it. Jump off a high cliff into the pristine waters beneath. Go surfing. Go skiing. Ride a bike as fast as you can. Go deep sea diving.

Or if you're scared of taking risks... Goto a theme park with the scariest roller coaster around. Sit on the roller coaster once. Then twice. Then walk around the theme park. Come back and sit again.

Nothing connects you back with life better than the position where you care for your life.

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Once you're done, sign up for a week long course at a Vipassana retreat near your house. Dallas Meditation Center offers it Dallas Meditation Center - Richardson / Dallas, Texas (I am just guessing it out because People Media are based out of Dallas I believe.)

Read this - What is Vipassana? to understand Vipassana. It is about getting to know oneself. And should help a lot with your derealization.

Feel better bro!
 


nighthaze said:
The eastern school of enlightenment advocates "destroy your ego, deny all worldly pleasures, it's all an illusion". But little do people know that the west has it's own tradition of enlightenment and it's something along the lines of "indulge vigorously in all the pleasures you can think of, denial is sin, live life to the fullest". Both are ways to the same end, but I think it's very appropriate to consider where you were born because if you live in a Western society, you cannot be successful WITHOUT a well-developed ego. So instead of destroying something that's there for a good reason, work with it.
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A well-developed successful ego.

Will you settle for that?
 
OP, Hobbster and the others in the thread who had these experiences. It seems likely to be the symptoms of so called "spiritual emergency", where any history of psychedelic or stimulant use might be a trigger. As well as traumas, stresses and many other reasons. There is a guy called Stanislav Grof who did lots of research on the topic, summarized in this book [ame="http://www.amazon.com/Spiritual-Emergency-Personal-Transformation-Consciousness/dp/0874775388"]this book[/ame].

I had that stuff happening to me in my mid twenties, and its still goes on, the journey unfolds, sometimes beautifully, sometimes painfully, with miracles and curses, with joy and tears... But this is what makes life interesting, what gives sense, meaning, direction... so many things together, would never change it back to the average materialistic mindset.

Im surprised how many of you here experienced it... Let's connect? Feel free to PM and good luck with your journeys ;)
 
siri om said:
OP, Hobbster and the others in the thread who had these experiences. It seems likely to be the symptoms of so called "spiritual emergency", where any history of psychedelic or stimulant use might be a trigger. As well as traumas, stresses and many other reasons. There is a guy called Stanislav Grof who did lots of research on the topic, summarized in this book this book.

I had that stuff happening to me in my mid twenties, and its still goes on, the journey unfolds, sometimes beautifully, sometimes painfully, with miracles and curses, with joy and tears... But this is what makes life interesting, what gives sense, meaning, direction... so many things together, would never change it back to the average materialistic mindset.

Im surprised how many of you here experienced it... Let's connect? Feel free to PM and good luck with your journeys ;)
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Hell yeah, I read a ton of Stan Grof. Other good perspectives are John Wier Perry's The Far Side of Madness and anything coming out of the transpersonal psychology crew.
 
Not sure if this applies to you, but fun fact -- emotions like isolation, loneliness, and rejection occur in the same area of the brain as where physical pain registers. That's why things like getting your heart broken hurt so much -- same brain area as physical pain.

True story.
 
I had/have similar episodes but I'm pretty sure mine are from doing a lot of LSD in highschool. Feels like I'm in an anime flick. Must have been some good pot OP.

Seriously though if you are going to get anything done you have to get grounded, I second Bloghue's idea about the rollercoaster. Adrenaline has worked for me.
 
And, OP, depending which direction you want to take it:

- to calm this process down, eat healthy and balanced diet, exercise, have plenty of rest and sleep, avoid stress, don't use any drugs or alcohol

- to speed it up to bring it to some culmination point, well, do the opposite. But honestly, don't recommend this option, as it can be very, very dangerous. Really.

Medical check up would not harm too. Even if its all of psychological nature, there could be biochemical triggers for it too.
 
Sounds like stress, anxiety and panic.

Eat better, get exercise and plenty of sleep.

Dont forget the sunshine!
 
embran said:
It sounds like depersonalization/derealization. I have it for 6 years now and it's fucking hell on earth. It started suddenly and I'm not the same person ever since.
The trigger was that weed probably.
No cure was found yet. The doctors can't even understand when you try to explain it to them.
If you have it, then good luck bro. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
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Epic First post lol. Did you create an account just to respond?


It almost feels like life, as I remember it, is permanently changed and I don't remember how to get back to my previous state.

I'm unsure the cause/effect (is my derealization causing this anxiety/confusion, or is the anxiety causing derealization)

It almost feels like I'm just floating somewhere in some sort of reality, but I'm wondering what reality or universe or being awake even means.

I had a great childhood, and nothing traumatic that I'm trying to block off.

I'm just worried that this is getting worse, and that I may never return to whatever 'normal' is.

Honestly: i feel like Link in the Ocarina of Time...just roaming through my life of Hyrule Fields. I can control everything, but just feel like some sort of...animation.
 
embran said:
It sounds like depersonalization/derealization. I have it for 6 years now and it's fucking hell on earth. It started suddenly and I'm not the same person ever since. The trigger was that weed probably.
No cure was found yet. The doctors can't even understand when you try to explain it to them. If you have it, then good luck bro. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
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This is spot on. Given limited set of facts, I'd guess it's this. Sometimes major life changes (and high quality marijuana) can bring about stress/pressure that cracks you at your weakest points. Consider getting therapy, grounding yourself. Re-examine and define yourself, your identity. It helps to talk it out with people you trust. I've seen circumstances that seem "normal" or "no problem" for some, be massively stressful or have major impacts for others. This job situation has impacted you. Find out why. Also, see the movie Mr. Nobody. Might help. And, lay off the weed.
 
I have a splog that cloaks to a clickbank product that could probably help you for $49.99

(seriously, dont buy it, its BS, dont get involved with the self help niche pdf market, its destructive!)
 
This does sound like classic anxiety/panic, most probably brought on by pressures and stressors. You basically just shit it from a sensation that you experienced and now you are shitting it because you think it was caused by somethinng being wrong with you. That is the anxiety cycle and thats why since that day you have never felt right. The rug has been pulled from under you and your sense of security has pissed off with the wind.

If it helps your peace of mind I would go to the Doctor and make sure there actually is nothing wrong with you, which will most likely be the case. After that you know 100% what you are dealing with and start making changes.

The positibe here is that you are just experiencing normal bodily sensations that are not harmful. They are defence mechanisms. Adrenaline is a powerful drug, hence the poweful sensations that you can experience. Just dont get tricked into thinking its something else. That is why the fear persists.

Good luck with everything, I wish you well. Anxiety is a fucking bitch! Go kick its ass!!
 
titanium777 said:
Epic First post lol. Did you create an account just to respond?


It almost feels like life, as I remember it, is permanently changed and I don't remember how to get back to my previous state.

I'm unsure the cause/effect (is my derealization causing this anxiety/confusion, or is the anxiety causing derealization)

It almost feels like I'm just floating somewhere in some sort of reality, but I'm wondering what reality or universe or being awake even means.

I had a great childhood, and nothing traumatic that I'm trying to block off.

I'm just worried that this is getting worse, and that I may never return to whatever 'normal' is.

Honestly: i feel like Link in the Ocarina of Time...just roaming through my life of Hyrule Fields. I can control everything, but just feel like some sort of...animation.
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I see it as like any other time the body/mind/soul/whatever takes matters into it's own hands. For example you could be eating bread your whole life and then one day your body says fuck you and suddenly you're gluten intolerant/celiac and can't even handle cross contamination of a few crumbs of gluten. You've been eating pastas, huge breadsticks etc etc. your whole life and now all of a sudden if there is even a crumb of bread (gluten) which falls into your food you have debilitating cramps and bloating.

We all get a taste of it. Days where we wonder what the hell we're doing with our lives.. Most people can just shrug it off and get back on the wagon.

Your body/mind/soul has decided it's done with the soul crushing work/schooling/life you have been putting it through and it's not going to let you shrug it off. It won't allow one more second of it.

Time to really dig down (and also get out and do.. stewing on problems rarely leads to a good solution) to figure out how to enjoy yourself and live honestly.

It's a curse at first and a gift when/if you make it through.
 
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Hey man I can relate a lot to how you're feeling...

Few things that should help:

- L-theanine (Good for mild anxiety and rushing thoughts/overthinking.)
- Start meditating. Beneficial for a host of things like anxiety, depression, etc. The benefits build progressively so try and make it a habit. (Start with 5 mins, morning & night then work slowly up to 30 mins. Use chains.cc to track habits.)
- Limit time on internet/computer. (Spend more time in reality. Reading, walking, etc.)
- Building on the previous point, try and stay 'present' when you are using the internet. Stay productive and try not zone out while watching videos/livestreams/browsing aimlessly.
- Keep a regular sleep schedule. (Set an alarm and stick to it.)

Good luck mang. Remember you aren't going crazy/losing your mind. Stay positive!
 
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erifdekciw said:
Not to long ago I kept getting these weird out of body sensations whenever I would go outside. I would be perfectly fine inside, take 20 steps outside and all of a sudden felt like I was in a dream. Not sure what caused it, but I kind of liked it. It was really weird, but it felt like I was experiencing life in third person.

Anyone ever have this happen to them? I was on some adderall for about 2 weeks when all of this was going on (actually now that I think about it, this started happening when I stopped taking it). Anyone who takes adderall, is this a normal side effect when you stop taking it?
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I had the same thing happen to me but I wasn't on any medications. There is a real term for this condition but I'm too lazy to look it up right now. Either way it passed thankfully in a about a week or so, I remember skipping an exam because of it.
 
I suppose we all have our mental or physical issues that we deal with. Whether it be anxiety, depression, depersonalization, or even something such as dealing with the loss of somebody close to you.

Want to go back to being a kid where the worst thing that happened was scraping a knee or forgetting to save my videogame and turned it off LOL
 
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