I'm gonna sound like a pussy here, and I am ready for the meatspin spam in this thread, but here it goes. This one is going to be a long one.
I am 20 y.o., in August I'll turn 21. I live in Northern Europe, and I am about to blow my fkin head off.
An interesting phase has come into my life - I am about to go full time with affiliate marketing, at the moment I work part time in a soul burning 9-5 office job, and in one month I'm gonna go full time with my IM biz. And this has made me to start thinking.
The problem is that I don't know if I even want to go full time. I hate consumerism, sheep people and all others.
Everywhere I go people are always talking about new shit gadgets, new TV shows, the newest and hottest popsong shitlist on the radio, and all my life I have been somehow out of this "cool and trendy people" club.
I fcuking hate my douche co-workers, all day at the office they are fighting - Apple vs PC; HTC vs Iphone; Audi vs BMW, which basketabll team is going to win, who will win the World Hockey Championship, how with the new Sony TV you can access facebook and do video calls with Skype, all this useless shit that has filled their heads thanks to all the marketing, advertising on TV, radio, etc.
It makes me sick to go to a mall, all these pseudo happy people with bags full of new trendy shit that adverts tell them to buy, omfg.
I am a party animal, but I can't go inside "normal" night clubs, my heart skips a beat when I see all those douchebags with golden D&G belt buckles, Ed hardy caps, tanned skins, popped collars, golden watches, golden chains just to satisfy their fcuking egos. I haven't been in a night club since I was 17.
The most funny this is that at the moment I make about two times more than the average person, and the last time I bought a pair of jeans was 6 months ago in a thrift shop. I drive red 1985 VW Golf MK2, and no I don't walk around with smelly and dirty clothes.
I dropped out of High School because I could never accept what the teachers were trying to push into my head: "Get education, get a job, start a family, then FCKIN DIE".
I moved out of my parent's house when I was 16. The main reason why I started affiliate marketing was so I could become as free as possible from the 9-5, from douche bags, and live my own life.
I want to travel the world, maybe go nomad for few years, meet people, see new places, visit all 7 continents, go dog sledging in Greenland, do a boattrip on Amazon, see lions in the wild, buy a winery in France, all these things I want to do before I have wife and kids.
I want to make it with affiliate marketing not because of the money, but because I want to be free, be free to experience the world, I don't need any BMW M3, I don't need 42" TV, I don't even have a TV, I don't need a 3 story house with gyms inside, I don't need $12,000 golden watch, designer clothing, etc.
I am a complete fanatic of "Do It Yourself" and "Self education" philosophies.
And here comes the major cockblock, I am really happy that I have made so far in my life that I can quit my fuckin job and be my own boss, but at what cost?
And here comes the hypocrisy:
I hate all these adverts, consumerism, sheep people, and all other shit that I just talked about, and in this thread I have mentioned only a small portion. But the most funny thing is that I am making money with the shit I hate. I am the one pusshing bizopps, I am the one trying to figure out which text combo will trigger a person to buy, I am the one designing ad banners with happy people in them trying to pursue the target dem. I am the one that is supporting this fucked up system, I hate this, I have hated this buying shit all my life, yet I make money doing this. Fcuking annoying I tell ya.
And now I don't even know if I want to go full time. I don't even know if I want to do affiliate marketing at all, yet I understand that almost no other business will give me as much freedom as affiliate marketing.
I understand that many people in this forum are the sheep people that I just talked about, and I am gonna be pissed all over. But, has anyone ever been in the same position as I am? Is anyone here with the same beliefs as I am and has somehow got over them? At the moment I fell like I am betraying myself, or to call it "selling out". I hate "sellouts'".
My thoughts in a nutshell:
"The new world order reeks of dying empire odor
and changing the channel wont make that go away.
As the veneer of democracy fades away, as the worlds
down-size until it explodes, as the shanty-towns piled
behind the malls become visible, as the savages on the
other side of the wall break through, as everybody from
gun-crazy militias to anti-immigrant nazis to fundamentalist
child-raping christians to gangsta rappers to community
activists to working families just struggling to put food
on the table, all mad at the same thing: your SUV; me, me, me;
"mission accomplished"; bring em on;
buy more stuff, buy more stuff,
fight terror, defend freedom so you can buy more stuff.
The false illusion of the world is going down, motherfucker.
Walk off your job. Crime is beautiful.
A prank a day keeps the dog-leash away.
Quit your jobs. Burn down the malls. AAARRRGGHHHH"
- From a song "Baby Punchers" by Leftover Crack.
I am 20 y.o., in August I'll turn 21. I live in Northern Europe, and I am about to blow my fkin head off.
An interesting phase has come into my life - I am about to go full time with affiliate marketing, at the moment I work part time in a soul burning 9-5 office job, and in one month I'm gonna go full time with my IM biz. And this has made me to start thinking.
The problem is that I don't know if I even want to go full time. I hate consumerism, sheep people and all others.
Everywhere I go people are always talking about new shit gadgets, new TV shows, the newest and hottest popsong shitlist on the radio, and all my life I have been somehow out of this "cool and trendy people" club.
I fcuking hate my douche co-workers, all day at the office they are fighting - Apple vs PC; HTC vs Iphone; Audi vs BMW, which basketabll team is going to win, who will win the World Hockey Championship, how with the new Sony TV you can access facebook and do video calls with Skype, all this useless shit that has filled their heads thanks to all the marketing, advertising on TV, radio, etc.
It makes me sick to go to a mall, all these pseudo happy people with bags full of new trendy shit that adverts tell them to buy, omfg.
I am a party animal, but I can't go inside "normal" night clubs, my heart skips a beat when I see all those douchebags with golden D&G belt buckles, Ed hardy caps, tanned skins, popped collars, golden watches, golden chains just to satisfy their fcuking egos. I haven't been in a night club since I was 17.
The most funny this is that at the moment I make about two times more than the average person, and the last time I bought a pair of jeans was 6 months ago in a thrift shop. I drive red 1985 VW Golf MK2, and no I don't walk around with smelly and dirty clothes.
I dropped out of High School because I could never accept what the teachers were trying to push into my head: "Get education, get a job, start a family, then FCKIN DIE".
I moved out of my parent's house when I was 16. The main reason why I started affiliate marketing was so I could become as free as possible from the 9-5, from douche bags, and live my own life.
I want to travel the world, maybe go nomad for few years, meet people, see new places, visit all 7 continents, go dog sledging in Greenland, do a boattrip on Amazon, see lions in the wild, buy a winery in France, all these things I want to do before I have wife and kids.
I want to make it with affiliate marketing not because of the money, but because I want to be free, be free to experience the world, I don't need any BMW M3, I don't need 42" TV, I don't even have a TV, I don't need a 3 story house with gyms inside, I don't need $12,000 golden watch, designer clothing, etc.
I am a complete fanatic of "Do It Yourself" and "Self education" philosophies.
And here comes the major cockblock, I am really happy that I have made so far in my life that I can quit my fuckin job and be my own boss, but at what cost?
And here comes the hypocrisy:
I hate all these adverts, consumerism, sheep people, and all other shit that I just talked about, and in this thread I have mentioned only a small portion. But the most funny thing is that I am making money with the shit I hate. I am the one pusshing bizopps, I am the one trying to figure out which text combo will trigger a person to buy, I am the one designing ad banners with happy people in them trying to pursue the target dem. I am the one that is supporting this fucked up system, I hate this, I have hated this buying shit all my life, yet I make money doing this. Fcuking annoying I tell ya.
And now I don't even know if I want to go full time. I don't even know if I want to do affiliate marketing at all, yet I understand that almost no other business will give me as much freedom as affiliate marketing.
I understand that many people in this forum are the sheep people that I just talked about, and I am gonna be pissed all over. But, has anyone ever been in the same position as I am? Is anyone here with the same beliefs as I am and has somehow got over them? At the moment I fell like I am betraying myself, or to call it "selling out". I hate "sellouts'".
My thoughts in a nutshell:
"The new world order reeks of dying empire odor
and changing the channel wont make that go away.
As the veneer of democracy fades away, as the worlds
down-size until it explodes, as the shanty-towns piled
behind the malls become visible, as the savages on the
other side of the wall break through, as everybody from
gun-crazy militias to anti-immigrant nazis to fundamentalist
child-raping christians to gangsta rappers to community
activists to working families just struggling to put food
on the table, all mad at the same thing: your SUV; me, me, me;
"mission accomplished"; bring em on;
buy more stuff, buy more stuff,
fight terror, defend freedom so you can buy more stuff.
The false illusion of the world is going down, motherfucker.
Walk off your job. Crime is beautiful.
A prank a day keeps the dog-leash away.
Quit your jobs. Burn down the malls. AAARRRGGHHHH"
- From a song "Baby Punchers" by Leftover Crack.





