For me it's all of those and neither. Freedom, no boss etc it's all really nice but the thing that depressed me was the fact it takes years to get anywhere. Here at least I can blame myself if my work ethics sucks but working in a corporate environment where you're literally at the mercy of your superiors... fuck this shit. I can't wait 5-8 years to be promoted and 10+ years to be a high paid manager or whatever.
And what, enjoy myself when I'm full of cancer and arthritis at 60+? Or get dementia and get to the point where I don't recognize even my close family and am in a perpetual state of fear and just slowly fading away? No I don't accept that. I might not be healthy at 60 or so but I am now and that's why it's important to put everything I have in this so that I can live my life while I can.
Another strong reason for me is I don't want to regret not doing my best when I'm old. I don't want to wonder if my life could have been different. I know now I won't regret not working for someone else but I definitely would regret not trying to make it on my own.
And what, enjoy myself when I'm full of cancer and arthritis at 60+? Or get dementia and get to the point where I don't recognize even my close family and am in a perpetual state of fear and just slowly fading away? No I don't accept that. I might not be healthy at 60 or so but I am now and that's why it's important to put everything I have in this so that I can live my life while I can.
Another strong reason for me is I don't want to regret not doing my best when I'm old. I don't want to wonder if my life could have been different. I know now I won't regret not working for someone else but I definitely would regret not trying to make it on my own.
